You guessed it, my struggle during this time of year is what to do about vacation. Somehow, in the old days, when I worked for someone else it was so much easier – I had no choice. However, now that I own my own business I do have a choice. One would think that the freedom of being able to take time off whenever you want would be an amazing thing. However, as many of you small business owners out there know, taking vacation is filled with feelings of guilt instead.
I notice that some of my associates who have children are really good at just taking the entire summer off, again partially because they have no choice but partially because being with your children all summer definitely does not leave you riddled with guilt. It seems to be a very acceptable and well-founded decision.
So, why is it that when I, with no children, decide it’s summer and I really want to take a couple of weeks off I just can’t seem to do it? The knot in my stomach begins to form, the really annoying little voice in my head starts chattering and I cave and delete those days I had marked in my calendar as ‘Vacation’. How dare I think I can take two weeks off? Who’s going to pay the bills? What if I miss an opportunity to work with a client? What if a new client calls during that time? What if the sky falls in? And so on and so on . . .
And then there’s the neverending ‘To Do’ list that could get done while I’m ‘on vacation’. The idea here is that I tell my clients I’m taking a week off and then I hide in my office and work on all those projects that are listed on the big white board (actually it’s silver, kinda cool, huh?). It tells me I have some website revisions to do, I have a new workshop series to pull together for the fall, I have a trip to Newfoundland in September, and so on and so on . . .
But wait, it’s summer. Summer in Nova Scotia only lasts a few weeks. I need to take advantage of it or just like last year it will be over and I will not have taken any time off. OK, here goes. I’m booking off the last week of July and making plans to do things with people so I’m committed. I’m also taking off a week in mid August and actually have already booked to go away for two days at the beginning of that week so surely that will force me to complete the week since my brain will already be on vacation.
I’m liking the sounds of this already. Let’s all be sure to take some vacation this summer. I’m convinced we’ll be thankful we did when it’s all said and done. The work will still be there when we return, won’t it? Apparently vacation is good for my health and wellbeing – imagine that.